31.8.07

School yesterday was a total slack. Due to the cross-ctry prolong speech in the morning which we knew it already, we missed our reading period. We had to endure the blazing sun stricking on us. Then eng was free period due to it's yesterday hard work. COOL! Aft eng, was maths but some of us skipped maths & the reason was, we do filing with the other lucky winners even though we are NOT the lucky winners. HAHA! & Mdm chin didnt care about it too.
Then mt was clearly nothing coz teacher didnt turn up. So ya, free period again. Amaths was just practises and stupid bear bear is so curious about "whos my crush?" But, wth, im not telling you anything.
:D

Pics we took when we skipped maths lesson.
I tell you, we are rebel against teachers when we are burned-out.
:D
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Then went home, change and meet ash again. I got nothing better to do.
& he want to meet up. Then arnd 8 went out with amira to accompany her buy teachers day present and slack arnd. Shared some stories with her. We talked a lot precisely.
& yes, i would camwhore while waiting for miss 30-60 minutes late. Yup, its true.

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will post soon. It is holiday time baby!
:D

29.8.07

RUANG RINDU LYRICS - BY LETTO.

I soooo LOVE this soulful song.
plus plus,
i still LOVE their sandaran hati song.


Di daun yang ikut mengalir lembut
Terbawa sungai ke ujung mata
Dan aku mulai takut terbawa cinta
Menghirup rindu yang sesakkan dada
Jalanku hampa dan kusentuh dia
Terasa hangat oh didalam hati
Kupegang erat dan kuhalangi waktu
Tak urung jua kulihatnya pergi
Tak pernah kuragu dan slalu kuingat
Kerlingan matamu dan sentuhan hangat
Ku saat itu takut mencari makna
Tumbuhkan rasa yg sesakkan dada

Chorus 2x:
Kau datang dan pergi oh begitu saja
Semua kutrima apa adanya
Mata terpejam dan hati menggumam
Di ruang rindu kita bertemu

Bertemu

_______________

I having all the sentimental feelings when i'm sick.
I just wish you were there beside me making me warm.
I missed you like fat kids misses chocolate.
I want you so much like how dehydrated ppl wants water.
I need you badly like how a 2 year old child need its parents.
& now, i can only hear my voice praying for you.
Are we that oblivious?
( kau dtg dan pergi bergitu sahaja)
& i now feel the pain.

28.8.07

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N: Good boyfiee / girlfiee
O: Really easy to fall in love with
R: Can kick your butt
F: People wild and crazy adore you
A: Drop dead gorgeous
D: Is a great dancer
Z: Lives life for fun
I: love to laugh
L: Very romantic person
L: Very romantic person
A: Drop dead gorgeous

________________
See if your name fits you :D

A: Drop dead gorgeous
B: Loves to make people laugh
C: Really easy to fall in love with
D: Is a great dancer
E: Beautiful eyes
F: People wild and crazy adore you
G: Dont let people tell you what to do
H: Easy to fall in love with
I: love to laugh
J: Easy to have fun with
K: Really silly
L: Very romantic person
M: Makes dating fun
N: Good boyfiee / girlfiee
O: Really easy to fall in love with
P: Popular with all types of people
Q: A hypocrite
R: Can kick your butt
S: Lives life for fun
T: Great Friend
U: Gets blamed for everything
V: Not judgmental
W: Very broad minded
X: Never let people tell you what to do
Y: Loved by everybody
Z: Lives life for fun

_________________


Its an everyday routine . Life can be really sickening and miserable when what i lust for just didnt turn out right. It can be pissed off too at times.

I seemed to feel lost hope and other.. I still can express this feeling but I always cheer up at the end of the day cause I'm the one who is facing the problem and if i still stick to it , I might be moody all day long .

Nobody knows when, where and why i am crying. Nobody knows what i am thinking of and whats on my mind. I just trained to hide my tears from anybody even parents. I just felt like i'm living my own life, alone. & now, i just realized how lonely i am without you though there's friends and families who is there for me always. Being independent can be hard at times when what i really need and hope for just disappear at sight. I still cannot accept the fact.

When i hear slow and love song, ur name just dash out of my minds. Just like this song in my blog. You can feel the song if you read it's words and feel it's beat. I just miss you like a child misses its blanket. Love life can be tiring at times. I bet those who lost their loves ones still misses them even though they are with a new one. See how much a person who cause a drastic impact in ur life can do. It affected me a million. Don't think i'm so hyper in school today with smile on my face makes you think i okay. I'm not actually. I'm just trying to make my day okay without you but guess what, i cant.

27.8.07

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Duh im bored. So i did this .
(:


1. When was the last time you had
butterflies in your stomach?
- Idk.

2. What are you wearing from head to toe?
- hmm.. tees and jeans. going out later.

3. Does your phone ring in the middle of
the night often?
-depends.

4. What did you do last night?
- watch moon& nightlife with siblings :D

5. What are you doing tomorrow?
-schooling?

6. What is something you've learned
about yourself recently?
-idk.

7. Do you like anyone?
-maybe? (:

8. Do you know anyone who is married?
-like duh..

9. What is your favourite number?
-8...wooo~! (:

10. What was the last thing to make you cry?
-i dont remember.

11. Are you outgoing?
-idk.

12. When was the last time you cried?
-idk. seriously, absent minded. (:

13. What is one thing you miss about
your past?
-not sure.

14. What is one thing you've learned
about life?
-what goes around comes around.

15. Are you jealous of anyone?
-nah..

16. Is anyone jealous of you?
-should i care? I dont even know :D

17. Have you ever used a friend?
-of course not. Im not like that somebody.

18. Has anyone recently told you that
-they like you more than as a friend?
yeah. many times (:

19. Who was the last person you drove with?
-MY CRAZY MUM. (:

20. What are you looking forward to?
-Oh good grades, pls come back!
&& get to know him better.

21. How are you today?
-ubber happy!

22. What's your worst experience?
-not sure.

23. Are you currently single?
-yes. && im lovin it~!

24. How many things in your past do you
regret?
-countless. Too many.

25. what do you think of love at first
sight?
-it may be true sometimes.

26. Have you ever kissed two people in
one night?
-gila kah? OMFG!, whose that 2 person.
tymer eh?

27. Have you ever been in the emergency
room?
-yeah, when i was a kid.

28. What's the last movie you watched?
-i dont remember. Spartan?

29. If you could change anything about
your past, what would it be?
-to stay with him always :D

30.Have you ever felt like killing somebody?
yeah! totally! (:

____________
OKay, done. I going to aunt's house later
to celebrate(doa doa uh,bkn party) the coming bulan puasa. HUrray~!!!
bye bye.
(:

26.8.07

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Since i have not blog for days, here are some breakdown of events.

Tuesday : School was as usual. Teachers just didn't add some spice in their teachings.
School for me is starting to get boring and boring.
Then in the afternoon, went out and met ash.
Watched movie with friends in his house. Like wat kan. Ckp nk pulangkan
bende padahal2 step jek. Slack like some pig in his house. Kiter melalak kt umah dia. whuahuahua.

Wednesday: The usual thingy. Couldnt remember much.

Thursday: School was again the usual. Maths result for me was badly
done due to some careless mistake. Geram sey, setakat careless mistake
dah lose lots of marks. If not, dah dpt full marks. fuck la, i know how to do it, but it was just bcoz of careless mistakes. Fuck kan tu. After sch went supermarket to buy items for carnival. Shopping for food with classmates is great. Apart for some MAK NENEKS made the moments upside down.

Friday : School was the usual thingy. This time get geo result. Once in a lifetime,
i got a mark as low as that. Tk pernah2. I quite disappointed by it.
It was the same thing, careless mistakes again. boohuu. Then aftersch, met ash again.
Then went to syaf house to prepare for the food carnival on Saturday. Pnat sey but happy times.
:D

Saturday : THE CARNIVAL. OUR stall sell pizza with ur choice of toppings. I like ridz's clown face. && still have the guts to say " eh manis sey paint nie! ". HAHAHA! Klakar la korang.
I shift from game stall to food stall and to game again and to food stall again and all over again.
haha. Enjoyed looking at ppl playing the games. Happy faces. && yes, laughters. Shahid throw the soft ball directly at ridz's balls. hahaha. That was the best part. Hazim can still play chapteh la sey. The food stall, yummy yummy. I ate a lot!!! Woooo~! Had fun but last yr carnival is more bombastic bcoz more ppl and more stall.

Sunday : Out with family, the usual routine.

Okay. Goodbye.
:D

20.8.07

I found this cool website and started to check on it.
&&& soo tadaaa.....


Your Seduction Style: The Coquette





You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get.

Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you.

Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you complete.

And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you.




What Is Your Seduction Style?

HAHAHA~!
Its lame, I KNOW but wth, its me.
So ya, if you are wondering why i LOVE to take my time it was bcoz of this.
I want to see how long you could last.
:D

For nlvl/olvls dudes out there, who feel like killing themself for all the non-stop
learning and revision plus mock exams. IT iS GONNA BE A LONG JOURNEY, i tell you.

SSooo, do this. I tried it many times. && i LOVE it.
hahaha.
Wat i meant was to go under a table and stress urself out.
ITs like hide and seek.
It is very effective. :D
who believes this is A DOPEHEAD.
Okay. goodbye.
I'm a bit hyper today.
:D

PS - i dont know wat my friends been thinking this time but
i think wat they thought was to do
the seduction thingy to gain effectiveness.
Haiyo.
&& they dont even hav the initiative to tag.
I gonna do it sooner. Dont make me do that.
thats the only clue im giving.

19.8.07

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Im soory ash for being a jackass towards you yesterday.
...But dont do that again, you know i hate it.
Soory eh.
&& mr. bombastic sey bdk tu.
huhu.
Im fcuking disgusted by ur so called seductive look.
HAHA!
:D

17.8.07

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Baby, let me feel what world is like again with you.

First, i shld give my thanx to the wonderful yet adorable gfs
for flooooooding my tagboard..., do it again! :D
Yes, your comments were just too many that i dont know which
one to reply first :D
&& Now i know, you guys become so hyper mcm cacing kepanasan when it
comes to topic of me n ehem*...
"Haish, apala nk jadi dgn kawanku ni".

So yeah, let me reply.

Sakinah: I think Matt Damon is way way cuter than bi rain && look at his HOT HOT HOT body. Bi rain is just too obsessed with 'rain',
tak habis2 dgn "rain is coming down"- Bile la nk end :D
And find the cable soon dear coz i want the pics esp the pic with ur specs in it - I looked like someone who LOVES to study (:
&& Just call me by my name & nah, i don't think i resembles Juliet personality.
I prefer to live in a reality world than fantasy though...so, fadz sounds better (:
...... idk wat to say oready.
:D

Syaf: Syaf comments are quite equivalent to mine except for matt damon part.
& the nick part - i have no comment (:
&& thanx dear for flooding my tagboard.
"Sarang hae yo"

Yesterday, something terrible happened to my youngest bro & i swear i cant bare to look at him being ****** by my dad n it was too late.
&& Let me emphasized, " I HATE someone who makes false accusation".
I mean seriously because it could bring someone to a critical situation.
Just think it thorough again before you make ur decision to accuse someone under a statement
which he/she does not do it.
Do you want to be in that situation?
__________

15.8.07

I getting use to edit pics .
Soso...can i show my pics now?
:D


Me& mira
9 years of relationship& still counting.
We are still so called "sisters".
(:

&& the next few pics are from my comp
but i couldn't remember when i took it.
well , bcoz they are someone im closed with,
i feel like uploading these pics.

pH paper :D
My Amths irritating buddy.
Nah, i shld be the irritating one.
:D
I love this buddy.
Jop a.k.a Bear bear.
Ya, he is soo serious looking butbut hes cool.
No doubt.
(:
&& i love this bro.
This is the loudspeaker.
So irritating yet its okay.
I like loudness than silence though.
&& i love this boy.
:D

OH! Khai was left out. I don't have your pic. Too bad luh.

SAKINAH !!! I want the pics that we took in class today.
YUP, if you guys are wondering,
me & sakinah spent time snapping pics in class.
Call us "bad girls" & we wont bite you rather than
calling us "bitches" where we would chase you.

ENG ASSIGNMENT:
Dear Mr. loveable
I just want you to know that you had treat me superbly good.
Your love for me can't resemble any of my other love story.
You have made an impressive scar in my life.
You are my armour when i go to war, you are my safeguard.
Without you, my armour, i'm worthless and
i would be killed in a slaughtering situation.
You boost up my life and made me continue
to pursuit you in this exhausting love story.
Please tell me that our love is infinitely strong and
it would nvr end until it was time for us to go.
Boy, what shld i do to enrich our love story?
what shld i do?
.................
Gf, you shld be glad that i want to post this.
:D

14.8.07


Mum dad, i swear i want to watch this movie. Pls pls pls.
I'm a fanatic of this movie since like the very first time i watched it's first "bourne identity" to "bourne supremacy" and now, to their 3nd edition, "bourne ultimatum".

I tell you, and i bet it is the greatest tense, action/adventure, triller and sequel
movie ever as he finally knew who he is. Yes, judging from it's BEST last 1st & 2nd edition, this time it is more than that...thus,
I WANT TO WATCH IT!!!

&& Sakinah, i hoped you enjoyed ur gwen stefani concert. (:
Awww... i just wish i could go too.

- Got mt olvl result on yesterday. & yes, i gonna retake.
The word " retake" is clear enough to tell you how bad it was.. so i shant elaborate.
:D

12.8.07


Coming to 4 years of relationship.
& still counting.
I STILL LOVE HER.
SHE IS MY BEST FRIEND ~!!

I'm GLAD she is.

& yes, i accomplished my editing style.
Self study ya.
(:

Next upcoming week is a hell...
Ya, gonna be busy with the upcoming events..
So, see you guys soon.
:D

10.8.07

JAcintha's sweet sixteen birthdae party.
A VERY VERY VERY GRAND BIRTHDAY PARTY INDEED.

Class 4/3 is love
Me & sakinah. (:Sakinah... (: (sexy!)My friends...ooo.. oinkoink**
" The beauty& the beast "
Or you prefer
"the bitches & the jerks "
(:
Cuteness !!!Xn bf.
Hahaha.
JOKING ~!!! A scandal again but this time with a child
OMG!! I know (:
hahahaha
Okay, joking again.
Im being sarcastic.

& the finger licking good food !!!! I think i was talking to sakinah in the middle of the
dance floor.
I was pointing there & she was pointing nowhere.
(:
& eventually, we went wild on the dance floor.
Its not illegal & sorry if the pics is too obscene.
(birthday gal: middle, wearing black)
We took mrt & snap here n there.
We looked pretty short here.
MIND you, we are 160++ tall.
The party ends at 11p.m & i reach home at 12-1p.m

&& thanx jacintha for inviting
I bet class 4/3 had a blast that day.
Its a bombastic event.
WE HAD FUN !
(:

7.8.07

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Lets emphasized the word for today.
" Isn't it romantic? " or was it just another " Confusion of confession? "
To get revolve in this kind of thing such as love for a long period of time might be tiring + confusing.
& that was why we have break-time, but in this case it was called single.
& get this straight,
Give me a room to breathe la deh.....
His craved name was still in my heart and sooner it will be gone...thus im trying.
Okay, enough of this. I'M TIRED.

& FUCK WITH EMOs la sey. I'M NO EMO. ITS just a make-up boy.
I will upload photos on JACINTHA'S GRAND SWEET SIXTEEN.... super duper loves the celebration.... (:
& photos on celebrating national day tmr, maybe.

perasaanku ini tersentuh
apabila rindu ini berlagu...

Don't go far.. don't fall... but let it fade by itself coz it is less painful.
Pls...

1.8.07

Okay. Hello again. Time is now soo precious. They went by just like that & it is mostly wasted.
SO ya, yesterday was mainly lots of unknown & unfamiliar calls. 1 confess that they know me since sec 1 & start asking me whether i'm available N said i have changed a lot. Another 1 confess that he is a friend of ashraf's ex gf & wants to know me better, OHMY, ashraf will get FUCK UP if he know this. Seriously.

First caller was raizan? something like that, uh. So ya, i highlight some of the conversation.

Zan: Hello. masih kenal tk raizan? Im used to talk& chat& even when out with you once when you was still in lower sec.
Me: Saper sey? serious, tk kenal. Look okay, i cant talk long becoz this is my bro hp which is actually my old hp no. Aniway, wat do you want?
Zan: Alamak, darah naik sak dgn pompuan ni. Takkan tk kenal? Baru 16 dah sombong sey.....(drag voice)
Me: Eh, ni bkn sal sombong la. Im talking to someone i don't know or i don't remember. Wat if im talking to someone who already had childrens,,,, i nvr noe.
....bla bla bla....

So ya... then the conversation went on even though i wanted to stop it. He talk a lot bout his life nowdays. The purpose he called me was becoz he was bored....so search for old contacts & walaaaa, i'm one of them.

Next was ashraf ex gf's friend. Wat the hell he want from me la sey. Im not even close to ashraf ex gf. Duh. & i think his name is farhan? Wth.

Farhan: hello, you fadzilla kan?
Me: oh, hello! yes, i'm fadzilla but you are?
Farhan: farhan. Masih ada contact dgn ashraf lagi?
Me: oh... farhan? who is farhan? Ya, i'm still in contact with ash. Asal?
Farhan: uhm, well, kenal ash ex gf? I'm a friend of hers.
Me: oh. & why would she give my no to you & from where did she get my no?
..... bla bla bla.

Kinda ironic coz me & ash's ex gf was totally not close due to some reasons.... sooo...
uh, somebody help here. I'm not good at this. (:

I have to meet ashraf today as usual but becoz, i'm too tired& amira wanted to go to my house to lend something... I went home instead. My eyes are getting worse day by day. I don't want to go to sch & i don't have the initiative to see a doctor. (:
Kwnku best bangat....2 weeks mc la sey. Gerek nye! (: