Maroon 5 - Wont go home without you

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say
Oh
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

The taste of her breath, I'll never get over
The noises that she made kept me awake
Oh
The weight of things that remain unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

Im pretty much a slacker at home n wats worst? - Parents have been a real jackass with me. Pfft! So yeah, the only solution is to get away from home. Hell yeah! Im not doing this to oppose but im doing this bcoz i cant take it. Mom dad, you guys are too much. This is my life. I noe what im dealing with. Even a wrong small step i took might be a crucial consequences in my future. I knew all this okay...i learnt it. So dont worry too much about me. I know wat i capable of. & I believe, if you dare to do it, dare to face the consequences but not run away from it. & Lately, i've been facing shitass problems. I THINK ITS KARMA. & KARMA'S IS A BITCH! Fuck kan.

So yeah, i met eddy yesterday. He picked me up at 10. We went to mac and talk nonsense. Ever since i broke up with izz, eddy have been there for me la. Now i realised la sey. AHAHA. Eddy is a real man you shouldnt miss hanging out with. Hes not a jerk. Dont worry. If you told him to back off, he will (: To a certain extent, hes a gentlemen. But when it comes to bad boy, he will be one. He is just someone with a little bit of heaven and a little bit of hell. Yadda Yadda Yadda & HES CUTE! I dont even know why im telling abt him. AHAHA .Eh korang2 yg nk ada matair talian eddy masih terbuka yer, jgn segan2. Minta ajek. Dia suker. Lmao :D

Wooooo~! COUNTDOWN! COUNTDOWN! COUNTDOWN! I cant wait for 2008 (:
- New year, new life, new resolution, new achievements, new faces & new probs to be solve -

And I swear I’ll know your face in a crowd.
And I’ll hear your voice so loud,
even when you’re whispering.

I swear ill merry the guy who does this to me!
Awww....sweet kan! IchyIchy, my eyes feels like crying.
:D
Woah, i think i miss him. AIYOYOYO!
Make ur wish for christmas alright, you'll never know your luck could change.

I made my decision... I think its the right time to tell you guys about America.
LoL. I bet you guys are sicked& tired of hearing friends going away la kan.
But dont worry i wont unless my shitass perangai didnt change. Then i had to and im force to.
Mom said, its for my own good. So yeah, im gonna be good for goodness sake...
Starting when? ....wallah huallam.
Ya Allah, kasi la aku petunjuk. Berilah aku masa, kekuatan dan malaikat utk membantuku.
:D
They even says that they could sent me there now and take olvl private. Study at home like homesch. Geee :D

Honestly, half of me wants it but the other just dont. Its bcoz of the nice ppl i met here, the nice weather, the busy ppl and most of all, the ones i will miss; friends, family and love.
I want to go there bcoz of the diff surroudings. In other words, it makes me forgot abt the
incredible painful sickening stuff i had faced in spore. & i think it could make me forget who i am in spore and change myself to be a better person there.
Im sure it can heals a broken heart too. Could it be any worse?

That was my purpose posting alicia keys song, "like you'll nvr see me again".
I want to cherish everything i had here b4 its too late.
ButBut lets hope that tmr and the future might change for the better ey.
AMIN!!!

I miss sch buddies :D
This pic was taken on friday, 14.12.07
Jambu kan satusatu. AHAHAHAHA.
Sakinah told me to STOP smoking. HELL YEAH!
Aku dah tk smoke pun (:

So yeah, im heading jb later.
Christmas coming guys...any plans?
:D

Alicia keys - Like you'll never see me again

If I had no more time
No more time left to be here
Would you cherish what we had?
Was it everything that you were looking for?
If I couldn?t feel your touch
And no longer were you with me
I?d be wishing you were here
To be everything that I?d be looking for
I don?t wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don?t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
?Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So every time you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you?ll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you?ll love me
Love me like you?ll never see me again

Oh Oh Ohhhhh

How many really know what love is?
No you never will
Do you know until you lose it


That it?s everything that we are looking for
When I wake up in the morning
You?re beside me
I?m so thankful that I found
Everything that I been looking for

I don?t wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don?t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
?Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So everytime you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you?ll never see me again
(can you do that for me baby)
Every time you touch me
(see we don?t really know)
Touch me like this is the last time
(see everyday we never know)
Promise that you?ll love me
(I want you to promise me)
Love me like you?ll never see me again
(like you?ll never see me again)

Ohhh ohhh ohhh ohhh ohhh
__________

Cherish every moment with ur love ones bcoz only ALLAH knows another day
is not guaranteed. LOL!

Move on like i always do

Okay. Okay. Sorry for not updating. Seriously, i've been busy with god-knows-what.
But first thing first, let me make this doolly-deelly-helly clear okay...

IM OFFICIALLY SINGLE ON 16th DISEMBER 2007.

PlusPlus, whats makes me happy& excited
----> HARDY WON ASIAN IDOL ON THE SAME DATE! :D

&& hell yeah, sorry sakinah for not updating. YupYup, im okay. Great instead!
Thanx you guys for being there when im seriously insane. Im standing strong now. I will try not to look back coz i knew, it will only hurts.
Well, sakinah i knew i text you sarcastic message abt my relationship the last time. AHAHAHAHA! Okay, im weird la kn. But wtf, im not too sure why i did that. Hurhur.
Niway, im moving on... I think syaf knew this already...Im in love wit mat-rempit hotstuff.
But Fcuk kn, im so typical. Niway, i dont think im ready for love business again.
Come on, olvl is like NEXT YEAR! Im not gonna crack my brain with love stuffs and sch stuffs together. Plus, my parents says, i will do better if i am single and not stressing abt 'LOVE BULLSHITS'.

Mom have been asking me abt how things been going between me& izz. & i get so pissed off when i heard "IZZ" again & again, and i talk back to her to mind her own business but not to worry mom, we broke up already ( Sorry mom. I didnt mean too. Really..)
I felt so terrible and guilty shouting at her. Shes just concern abt me and yet, i mistreat her. See what a broken heart could do to a innocent victim... Gosh! Do i sound sad enough?
Not only i miss izz but i miss ashraf too. But luckily, ashraf is still there to care and talk to me though im the one who dump him... Haiya, tapi kan, mamat ni giler la(ash), he ask me whether i want to become his scandal? AHAHAHAHAHA! FUCK kn.

I shld stop here. Update soon (:
Tc!

Friendships worth a lifetime

Okay, im so pissed off with my sore eyes.

It just didnt get any better but worst instead.
Booohuhu.

Aniway, yesterday at abt 11.45p.m, sakinah called me right after she reached the airport...
Woah....cool sia. She really really missed me :)))
Hurhurhur.
So yeah, welcome back to singapore hunney. You're back safe now. Phew! =)
Hope we get to see each other again once syaf n clarence plans the class gathering.
Simply cant wait for it :))

So yeah...today. Jason aka ayam arsehole editted for me some of my photos.
Awww...how sweet of you. Gugugaga :)))
Thank you.
Jason is so hot that i feel like hugging him though he calls me sotong due to my blurness.
Pfft! :))
Chatting nonsense with him and msging stupid msg to him while im bored is super best...
He can cheer me up.
Alright arsehole, i appreciate ur presence.
Now hes working and still can ask me to msg him.
You arsehole...go work luh!
:)))

N chatting with fadly that bastard who always call me bimbo can make me laugh every time.
He always spot my spelling mistake and calls me bimbo to against me.
Hes uber irritating makes me feel like kicking his **** once i meet him.
Pfft! Grrrr.
But i know, hes just joking. So, i dont take it too hard.
But yeah, sad to say, he did cheer me up.

N today, syaf called me to have girls talk. You know, you know the girls talk :))
So yeah....syaf knew everything now.
Sorry beb...next time call me to update on me.
alright.
AHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Hurhurhur.

N lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AMALINA!!!!
At last you reach 16yrs old. Allah slamatkn kamu...allah selamatkn kamu....continue*
Best wishes in life and be happy always.
Good luck in everything you do hunney.
=)

Thanx guys :)))
I super duper miss my friends!


Current mood: Warm (:

Big girls dont cry

Was browsing thru my pictures when i saw this old pic.
:))))
Sore eyes. Notice it? :)

Hello (:
Im so sick right now. Sore eyes followed by fever, cold etc.
My body is so weak that i cant barely walk. Even standing up feel like fainting.
So yeah, i wont type much today.
Just hope i'll be okay by tomorrow morning and the next day onwards.
Hope you enjoy the song by colby caillat- bubbly.
This song is soo cute and bubbly that it can make me smile all day.
It also make me remembers the good past i had b4.
CoolCoolCool =)


BUBBLY- colby caillat

I've been awake for a while now
You make me feel like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

It starts in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I going to say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it stats in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
'cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go

wherever you go
I always know
'Cause you make me smile
Even just for a while

Current mood: Sick :(

IMY!

The smell of ur skin lingers on me now.

:)))
I miss you baby. Take care during work okay.

Phew, friendster kept me busy.
N im so frustated with friend request bcoz some of them just dont understand NO, i wont accept you.
Haish.....

N ya...i got sore eyes. LIKE FCUK!
Its painless aniway...i can only stop rubbing and put eye drops to end it...
Aniway...yesterday night out with friends was super awesome.
So yeah, they were ahmad, zaki, eddy, atika, huda and me.

Favourite part was when eddy lost consciousness aft how many bottles...n started talking nonsense.
He even says..."Lets get dirty baby...wheres my thong" to me.
Like OH MY GOD! He soo funny (I cant imagine if im his gf)
I laughed like hell and slap his face... (BEST OII!! Once in a lifetime)
I thought he was really drunk but no, he said "ouch! Kimak! Sakit la siol!"
N if you're guessing...that i might drink too...
NO, DEFINITELY NOT!
Its already 12mignight++, how can a girl be drinking?
Apada....veryvery dangerous if that happens..
So yeah...they did cheer me up.
Hurhur.
Thanx guys.
( Hope eddy wont read my blog. Ehem!)

Current mood: happy (:

Back to square one

Hello world!
Im back to blogging now. Hope so (:
First of all, happy birthday to wx(that irritating boy i always fought with during chemistry)
N yeah, im glad you have a blog now. I can know wats going on with ur life (:
I miss my classmates.
Heee :)))
Gotta have a class gathering this december!

N oh, i find this humorous :))
Im finding sources that could make me laugh.

'Even fairy tales dont have a happy ending'
Take me to this place :))
I wish i was happy like the picture above.
I wish he understand me.

I miss this song. AHaha! :))
Baby, its fact. Our love is true.

Im going out later. Meeting friends. Chill and so. I miss them and i need to breathe. Im finding myself again. Im so depressed and sad. I need space. I need friends. I need air. I need chance to make it right again. Im cheering myself up. N i still wish he understand me. Im living in fear. I need answer. I hate waiting. Gugugaga.

Current mood: Lost :(

If this didnt happened

Am i being too much?
Do you hate me now?
''Saying goodbye doesn't mean anything.
It's the time we spent together that matters, not how we left it''.

Im touch by this phrase.
Gugugaga!!
I cant sleep, help me. SOS!

Is this worthwhile?

Sorry izzatur rahman for hurting you again.

Im such a beautiful liar. Nah, not beautiful, a big fat ugly liar i am.
I admit that, i am.
Can i be pinocchio?
So that my nose get longer once i lied again n again.
Its too late to apologise i guess.
Crying for you seems worth it now that im already with you n i hav fall in love with you.

Aniway, thanx for following me frm behind the other day.
I was praying that you would stop me though. Geee (:
I really got no mood going home. So ya..., i walked n walked to god-knows-where n you thinked i really did walked away frm you, didnt you?
Thanx for all the multimedia msg. It reminds me of F.B.I
Having Mac breakfast early in the morning with you was a pleasure. Gosh you eat soo fast.
I enjoyed playing games with you...looking from your side view, i can really see that you're having fun tat even a glimpse of me pun you tk perasan..only look at me once i looked like one blur sotong. Gah.
Bus rides arnd the neighbourhood...well, at least i can walk myself to northpoint.. See, im not stupid.
Ended up at sembawang alone feeling sick. Thats all.
Thank you for everything izz.
I still love you like i did yesterday, prehaps more.
Take care once you start working okay.
I will miss you baby.

Its hurts :(

~What hurts the most~

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do