27.4.08

My favourite worst special someone

Till nextnext week, insyallah ill post again. Happy mugging for Mid-yr ppl!
Wish me the every best alright. Ty :DD



Dear diary, i miss someone so bad.
Boy, you're the very best i ever had.
Finally, i know.
IMY.

24.4.08

Friends are part of my life~!

Stratch the caption for my previous post that "finally my life dont seem so bad".
Bleh, it is bad. DAMN BAD!
Great, i feel like crying already. gah.
I told her that whatever it is, PROMISED ME YOU WONT DO ANYTHING BEYOND UR WILL.
And i guess, what happened today proved everything.
That you cant take it but nearly took the wrong decision. And i hate that you even thought of doing it... :(((
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DONT BE LIKE THIS...PLEASE!
You still have your friends that care for you dear...I reallyreally dont wish to see a friend i truly appreciate leave me this way...
My arms are wide open for you. Im always here if you want a listening ear..Im more that grateful to hear it and never think too much, okay. Please, i beg you.
I cant imagine to witness everything with my own eyes, watching you just go like that.
Friends are part of my life. And if you leave, my life is not complete.
Please...

23.4.08

Finally my life dont seem so bad

You are currently listening to Finally by Fergie :DD
"Finally....Now my life doesn't seem so bad. It's the best that I've ever had. Give my love to him finally."
Sedap "sioll", seriously. (Okay cancel that "word".)

Anyway...i was busy finding some Malay story books especially for my dearest gf, sakinah. And i found "Hati terluka". Unfortunately, inside the book, there are kate-kate bunga which masyallah, makes my bulu roma ternaik untill now. JengJengJeng. So just sit back and relax...i write some of it in this blog...OH IM BEING SO CUTE! *faints*

what i got to do to make you love me?
What i got to do to make you care?
What do i do when lightning strikes me?
And i wake to find that you're not there?
What i got to do to be heard?
What do i say when its all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.
Its sad, so sad and its getting more absurd.

Not OVER okay...theres a Malay version! POwer kan! Tulah...go go power ranger!

Jika semalam ada kesalahku, maafkanlah.
Jika hari ini aku bertanyakan khabarmu, ini yang terakhir.
Jika esok tiada berita dariku anggaplah mungkin aku terlupa.

Okay goodnight now! Tc loves!

22.4.08

Mata takleh tutup siolll

Bleh....im bored...goddamnit! I'm so bored that i didnt realised i've been eating 3packets of chocolates. Damn fadz, yoou succha pigg! Fatsfatsfats. Oh well, fats mean happy. Damn right, fadz is a happy girl! <- LOSER(tgh entertain diri sendiri niii :DD)
N yea, I admit i am a loser. I've been slacking the whole day. Oral macam babi. YEAH! MACAM BABI! Tetek tu cikgu besar laa sangat and it grabs my attention sioll. Nampak tetek masok 50cents otak blank nkkk mampos....kan macam siall tu! Butbut, overall okay laa... Lepas oral melepaskan rase nervous di dalam toilet :DDDDD
Thankgod ader leez and ayim to accompany me chatting in msn. Kalau takkk...i will probably be outside now. Okay...i should go now.... besok skola bby! :(

19.4.08

The little things by colbie caillat :DD

[V1:] The little things, you do to me are
Taking me over, i wanna show ya
Everything inside of me
Like a nervous heart that, is crazy beating
My feet are stuck here, against the pavement
I wanna break free, i wanna make it
Closer to your eyes, get your attention
Before you pass me by

[C:] So back up back up take another chance
Don't you mess up mess up I don't wanna lose you
Wake up wake up this aint just a thing that you
Give up give up don't you say that I'd be
Better off better off, sleepin by myself and wonderin
If im better off better off, with out you boy

So don't just leave me hanging on

[V2:] And every time, you notice me by
Holdin me closely, and sayin sweet things
I don't believe, that it could be
You speekin your mind and, sayin the real thing
My feet have broke free, and i am leavin
I'm not gonna stand here, feelin lonely but
I wont forget you, and i won't think this
Was just a waste of time

16.4.08


Fcuk! Fcuk! Fcuk! Fcuk! Gahh! Im pissed off!
Sedih siol :(

15.4.08

Dangerously in love? Am i?

-Candid shots;taken by bro in his messy room-

"I am in love with you. You set me free. I can't do this thing. Called life without you here with me. Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you. I'll never leave. Just keep lovin' me. The way I love you loving me".

-You are currently listening to the dangerously in love by destiny child- :DD
Bleh...im bored to the max plus plus plus. I had NAFA today and i got gold baby! POWER! 5 years in a row la oi. Takleh carry i tell you. N yea, i think i've been slacking all day.

I managed to stop by and talk to mat rempit-tak-menjadi for awhile after school bcoz i saw him slacking and smoking alone near my place(ALALAA kesian). & i got tooo excited when he told me his story.

Ayim: FADZ! Maner kau menghilang?! Rindu aku dgn selenger cute kau nk mampos tu.
Me: Iyerrr!(sarcastically i suppose)...kau rindu aku keeeeerrr benndee lain ni.
Ayim: Ehhh....salah! Saper sak nk miss kau. Aku actually miss matair aku luhh bab tu aku ehem!
Me: MATAIR??!?! Eh....tepi-tepi(sits down), asl kau tak share dgn aku ni?!?! Sombong ehhh!
Ayim: Oh, kau tak tau eh???!! *senyum selebar-lebarnye* (Muker slenge kau mcm nk kene spank, serious :D )
Me: *roll eyes* Kalau aku tahu, aku tak tanye kau bodo! Lermak bercream arr kau yim.
Ayim: Eh eh dikni. Chill! Aku kasy kau tgok gambar dia then tats it. Yg lain pandai2 la kau.
Me: Canggih sak yim...maner dpt lobang pompuan ni cantik??! Minah eyy??
Ayim: Minah tak main uhh...tu dah buang seyh a few years ago... *senyum selebar-lebarnye*
Me: MACAM FAHAM!

The conversation went on and then, i had to go home. I had siesta for a few hours and i got really pissed off when my little brother purposely sleep next to me and hug me...(menyibuk, org nk peace pun susah. But nvm, siblings love.) and i got scolded aft waking up, mcm good morning nye alarm shock. Bleh! && now, im pissed off with God-knows-who for calling me bitch; the word that i wish not to hear...BAIK ARR!!
-Boy, this is not the last. You good at making it hurt damn well-

14.4.08

Never find a love like this

Arse-nal fan can go balik tidur luhh! MAN-U MENANG LA SEYH! && scandal aku aka C.ronaldo scored. Two thumbs up baby! *happy ey?* :D

Okay back to misery business. I should now be careful with what im writing bcoz Amir bby maha cute tuu is now actually reading my blog and asking for updates. Alalalala......cute to max i tell you.(ehem!) And today i dont know why and pls, dont ask me why i was superr duuperr the hyperr in sch. Pagi2 dah msg god-knows-who. Then back to class and had storytelling with julia juicy baby. I hope you and god-knows-who manage to confess and cut all these egos, alright sweetheart? Then had maths test...kk sheesssh, i've got toooo many careless mistake and i hate it. Then english was again talking,talking,talking. Amaths was best! I got scolded for being too caring motivating others to try harder for test. Apaalaaa ni cikgu...aku bising salah, aku diam salah, abeh aper seyh?
Bleh! i should go....im bored! Tc loves!

13.4.08

Yesterday night suckkkss balllzzz

My tears were cold. My body was cold. Everything seemed to be cold on that particular night. You too were cold towards me. I knew somehow the words you said, though it could be either you really mean it or not, I swear seratus puluh percent it hurts like a blunt knife stab through my heart and then pulled it out, vigorously left my heart cut open just like that. My heart was bleeding and still is, and I was left speechless. And I bet you are happy because you got what you wanted, to hurt me back or in other words to get your revenge. Happy? Jyeah…you should be. Go on boy, do whatever you want and hurt me as many you wish…. I still love you and no one can stop me from loving you unless you wanted me to do so. Why must this kind of things happened? I cant even contact you often now…cant you feel what I am feeling? I miss those happy talking we usually had. I miss those jolly moments. And I hate that particular night…everything seemed to be dark, cold, senseless and silent. I miss those laughter and more important I miss you.

6.4.08



HE was the ONE. From the way my heart was pounding, i just knew that i couldn't be wrong. I realize that such uncertainty hardly seems incredible. But that's the way it was. Its because i love him. And that's how it suppose to be when you're in love.

I waited. I waited for him to call. I waited. I waited for him to come out, to reappear, to say it, i just couldn't help myself. I was scared that everything would come crashing down, that from a distance things would no longer look the same, that this was all meaningless. I wanted it to be true.

I will be busy with sch tis week :DD
Especially on Thursday. I will be having a full dress speech day rehearsal for the prize of second in standard and top in English. KAKAKA! *grin*
N i have to take note of my attire. - No short skirts, black/ankle socks, shoes must be white and definitely the HAIR! OHH GAYY!
Aduh malas!!

Ok till here. Tc loves!

5.4.08

PICTURES! PICTURES!
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-30 March 2008-
(Mom said i look much more better with tudung. Kekek sak.
Macam softspoken lady gituk lorr. HAHAHA!)
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-29 March 2008-
(study grp)
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-24 March 2008-
(school days)
(this is what we do if theres free period..best to the max!)
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- 21 March 2008-
(siblings picture)

Have fun lovess! :DD

4.4.08


Aku sad la bodo..!
You such a let down. You are so disappointing.
And you've left me speechless. And you rip my heart open.
Recalling what you told me, i swear i could cry and breakdown the whole day.
What have you done? But i must say, CONGRATULATIONS for doing this.
Im such a cry baby when it comes to love and i hate it. I wish i am stronger to bring you down.., but i guess i cant.

I was stuck by the time frame. I knew it all along but i chose that path instead.
And eventually, i lose to you. Gah! How pathetic and stupid sia.

WAN KENA GUNTING RAMBUT! AHAHAHAHA! :DDD NK RAMBUT PANJANG LAGI? SILALAH KAYUH PELAHAN-LAHAN....jiayou! jiayou! Selamat bertugas di lapangan terbang yerr...senang2 aku jumpe kau and minah kecik, someday.
And to leez, I contact you if im going for this sat gig, ok maha cute! :DDD