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Happy 17th birthday to harveen and jeena!!

I always ppreciate your presence but most of all, thanx for being a friend and a sister.

Thanx for asking whether my day is good, thanx for asking how am i feeling...thanx for concerning, thanx for everything.

For now, i wish both of you best luck for everything. Score well for olvls.

I know you too can do it. Strive for it girlfriends!

Friends forever :D

-An attempt to take a picture with messy hair, no make-up,

wearing home clothes and most of all, sick of Amaths face-

Seriously, Amaths is frustating. Sometimes, i get migrain after doing amaths but alhamdulilah within that 1hr, i could get most qn right. Aku mendak uh buat Amaths kat umah. Hurhur. At least, differentiation is quite okay to handle. It's just the indices and square roots that makes me go olala. I still need to work on my proving for trigonometric functions even though i get the formula right. Yeah, I need to work on it babeh!

And guess wat, more homeworks are piling up since holidays is drawing near. Not only homeworks, test too. There is geography test on moan-day, Amaths test on chp 10&11 on tears-day and english test on wet-nesday. So yeah. Sec 5 life , 1 word -> STRESS.

Come on la, i havent even start my revision. I just thought of filling up my time during the holidays going lib and study with my beloved aku sayang and miss banget sister, Amira. But i guess, that counts if im free to do so. Yadda Yadda Yadda :D

And today, i dont know how and i dont why a english guy got my email add and chat with me in msn, and assumed that i chat with him b4. Now, hes asking whether i have a min or two for us to meet up and have a date or something. Haiyoyo. And how stupid of me to ask him : By any chance do you like asian girls compared to ur own skin?? Im not being bias la. Im curious. I meant, theres a huge different being asian and europeans. Why wouldnt a euro guy find someone his own skin, who most of us asians look up to and treat them as role models or foreigners. Okay. This topic is killing my time. I should stop here.

&& Not to forget,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO THE CHINESE!!

&

HAPPY HOLIDAYS FOR THE NON-CHINESE!!

Goodbye loves!

-Picture taken aft hockey practise-

Wow. Valentine's day coming. Shoots. Yay! This year fadz celebrate as a single babe uh. Hurhur. I dont know why im so excited, maybe its a first time qn. So far, so good. Singlehood is not bad at all...mcm faham uh fadz. I know, i know. After i said this phrase, 1 week after fadz dah attach. AHAHAHAHAHA. I didnt realised it but hisham made me realised it. OMGAY!

Sham: Tak rasa aku that time ko maki2 aft break up dengan izz. Abeh kutuk relationship merepek la, sakitkan hati la, a yadda yadda yadda rock my panties shit ahh.. Abeh now, kau dah attach dgn ardy. Ape pasal sak tu?

Me: (*Grins and smirk*) Perli aku nampak... Entahlah...aku pun tak tau uh asal...

Sham: Aku tau! Ko dengar clumsy by fergie tak? Ada phrase dia uh (turn on his mp3 and activate it to loudspeaker) "A girl like me don't stay single for long 'Cuz everytime a boyfriend and I break up, my world is crushed and I'm all alone. The love bug crawls right back up and bites me..."

Me: Pantat! Merepek uh kau...dah dah cukup. Suke buli aku eh kau.

Today half of my time was spent on comp, and half of it on homeworks and movies.

Okay bye loves! I should sleep early nnt amir-kene-sampok marah and then we will quarrel like cats and dogs. Heee :D

My saturday was spent well with my buddies and cuzins at limbang until this bitch approached me. I told you not to disturb me again and stop thinking that me and ashraf are together again. I said it many times that 'ITS FUCKING OVER' and why are you being so pessimist about it. Do i look cheap to go around and ask my exs to be my guy back again?! Stopitsiak!! I had enuf of ashraf problems and yeah, guys. Moreover, its not me who is chasing him, its ur bf la bodoh! Mata sortz kaper girl? Haiyo. You older than me lagi sey...Let me emphasize this (esp to ash bcoz i know you will eventually type my blog add and read tis), move on okay and go talk to ur very nice gf to stop making my life close to miserable. Enough is enough. I make a lot of sins in both single life and relationship life. Aku nak enjoy and start a good start. Ada faham? Ahaha.

To 'insert ur name here' : Aku masih contact dgn 'insert ur name here' nye kwn, abeh asal? Dorang kawan aku per. Bukannya aku close dengan dorang aku ada contact dengan 'insert ur name here'. Kalau kau takot sangat, go stay with 'insert ur name here' 24hours luh. I will stay away from both of you. Jangan takut, aku tak akan makan org. Aku bukan carnivorous :D

Sorry for the obscenities. Have a great day loves! (:

Okay, lets just summarise about school. Its pretty boring. Sch were mainly test test test and test. But im happy with my unexpected results. I scored 10/10 for geo though i didnt study for it bcoz i had a fight with ardy the day b4.
I scored 10/13 for ss SEQ and 14/18 for SBQ. I cant remember studying for this too but alhamdulilah! :D
Last friday, i had chem and physics test together. I only studied for chemistry bcoz i couldnt remember anything about alkenes and alkanes. Meanwhile, i just read thru for physics.
I hope i ace it. Insya-allah.

Okay, now im back with many stories in store :D


Let just talk about the sentosa trip which was in the early january i think. Eventually i had fun there. Take a long bus trip from cck ,188 to vivo and then to sentosa. We went to pahlawan beach instead of siloso beach. Initially, i didnt plan to go for a swim but bcoz nana was sadly the only one excited of swimming, all of us go change to accompany her. Amalina didnt brought any extra clothings so yeah, she ended up wearing only tube and her 'baby doll' panties though me and nana advise the more good way and still, she insist of wearing the way she wants it to be.

Basically, theres more funny stuffs but I dont feel like typing it all down. Haha. We headed vivo and ate and lepak. Sakinah FINALLY have the courage to msg and call hafiz and it turned out to be great. We leave vivo at 11 without riyan and lina bcoz both of them left us aft we had our dinner. So yeah, at MRT dramatic pulak. The cabin we board tend to be the unlucky ones bcoz theres a man who vomitted there a few hours later. Then razor start his sarcasm

Razor : Okay, aku bau nana, nana bau aku. Alip ko bau fadz, fadz bau mat. Mat ko bau...apek
sebelah kau.
Nana: Abeh sakinah?
Alip & Razor: Confirm dia tk tau pape...
Me: Bau macam bau buah sey...
Alip: Ahah, bau buah...
Razor: Bau busuk ada uh..Yg bau buah tu fadz la alip. AHAHAHAHA.

-Sentosa pictures-

I adore the love sandcastle :D && ignore the sign. Ty!

We had the best years of our lives,
But you and I would never be the same,
September took me by surprise,
And I was left to watch the seasons change.

It's been so quiet since you're gone,
And everyday feels more like a year,
Sometimes I wish I could move on,
The memories would all just disappear.

So many things I should've,
Said when I had the chance,
So many times we took it all for granted.

I'd never thought this could ever end,
I'd never thought I'd lose my bestfriend,
Everything is different now,
Can we stop the world from turning?

I'd never thought I'd have to let you go,
I'd Never thought I'd ever feel this low,
I Wish I could go back,
And we'd stop the world from turning.

Looking back on better days,
When we were young, we thought we knew so much.
And now it seems so far away,
I'm wondering If I was good enough.

So many things I should've,
Said when I had the chance,
So many times we took it all for granted.

This time, this post is only meant for amir. Thank you amir for being there for me. Everyone knows you have been there for me excluding eddy, who is busy with his new sch environment and hisham, who was so filled with excitement when he got 29points for his olvls. Even though i throw trantrums like a 5 year old child to you, screamed, shouted and disgusted you, you were still there. I cant express how thankful i am but thank you! You can call me and say sorry after reading this and after being mad at me for online-ing in msn for hours. Its not that i do not want to offline but its just that im bored and the random stuffs i would do is to surf. So dont get frust with it but i still dont understand why.

& i can still remember amir said this to me which is the sweetest thing a guy would do to a girl. "A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same". For once, amir said something sentimental and for once, a phrase that really gets into my head. I cant say much but i do appreciate ur presence. & I really hope we have less fights nowadays bcoz i hate fighting as much as i hate wars and politics.

Will post very soon. And sorry for the dead blog. Heheh.

HAPPY 2008!

What a great day! :D

As you know sch reopens today. I felt so weird wearing sch uniform. AHAHAHAHA!
My tops are somehow uncomfortable and my skirt looks longer. AHAHAHA. Did i get shorter? Well, can we get shorter? Lmao. Well, i dont need short skirt to make me look sexy. Confident is wat makes ladies out there sexy. Yeah, you got it right fadz!
I hate my bangs, seriously, i need a cut bcoz its kinda irritating..
My feet were hurting. But then, i tend to forget abt the pain aft laughing and having the usual FUN in sch (:

The boring part were the usual routine. PROLONGED speech abt olvl, sch & class rules, bad attire, bad behavior etc.

Lastly, after soo long, we finally got to meet each other in sch uniforms. CEY! Seriously, friends are the coolest piping hot thing you shldnt miss out having. They are freaking awesome yaw! I still remember wx told me to sit beside him in class bcoz we just love fighting. AHAHAHA! Amalina said khairul is getting handsome(EHEM) & i dont think he is still secretly watching my back, get this straight darlings. Ty. I still go CAIR aft looking at kembar alimi. HUHU! Hotstuff la sey...okay, sheeeesh! (: Mdm chin our FAV teacher is still the same old her. Besides that, the class was great yo! I could feel the class spirits...Roar like a lion, win like a champion.

I had fun with girlfriends today... We went food culture bcoz we miss the apeks& ang moh there. AHAHAHA. Nah, we just miss the foods and the hang out laughing place like we always did (:
Syafiqah handed me the BARANG-BAIK-DOK! AHAHAHA. Minta maaf yer...jgn la masokkn aku ke rumah besi. Amin! :D Then gfs went jambo mambo at syaf house. Thanx syaf for everything. You are like the angel who falls from the sky back then, seriously no kidding. THANK YOU EY! Appreciate you a lot after what you have done and help me. Sakinah too, for lending her ears to listen to my tales. AHAHAHAHA.

Okay, i shld stop here. Take care love ones! :D

I still keep this old me in my old comp. & its saki's old specs.
:D

You dont know how excited i am to welcome 2008 into my life and to leave 2007; the precious and most memorable year i've ever been. Seriously, fuck off 2007. I have hurt so much in that fuckingass year. Countless of tears and sickness....seriously, 2008 come on now!

I lost 2 of my favourite guys who "made" me gugugaga. Never thought that breaking up with ash and be with izz wld make me more happier. I screwed my life just bcoz of guys. I made the greatest sins ever. Parents sending me off to america. 2 friends of mine backstabbed me and made me think its the end of the world. I made fun of love aft all this sickenings. Fuck la....love doesnt even exist anymore laaa kay, its just a yadda yadda yadda & rock my panties shit thingy. Okay, i've got to stop here, its too painful already & i dont wanna flood with wasted tears now.

&& i started to believe wat most of my singles sugarbabies told me "I'm more happier than you" because she doesnt have any guy to ruin her perfect life. Its not that im not happy, Im just definitely not as happy as singles sugarbabies. But hell yeah, im gonna be happy soon. 2008 make me happy okay. Aniway, im sorry for those who i have hurt, those i have rejected, those i talked bad words to, those i ruined your life n etc. Look okay, karma is biting my ass off but nvmind i deserve it + karma's is a bitch always! It is tough to go thru all this bad deeds in 2007. Like ppl says, "whats goes around, comes around". Serve you right, bitch! Padan muker kau fadz. In ur face! Stubborn fadz, never listens to advise kn kn kn.

Thank you god for believing and giving me chance to live.
Thank you mom&dad for still forgiving me no matters how much i hurt you.
Thank you friends(SYAFIQAH, SAKINAH, amalina, amira, sufian, huda, atika, EDDY, ahmad, ardy, ANDY , amir, SHAH , ARIL, JASON, WX, BEAR muchmuch more) for being there for me & giving me a shoulder to cry on.
Thank you ashraf, izzatur rahman, fadly, shahril, shah iskandar, amay for adding spices in my life& giving me chances to love.
& lastly, thank you 2007 for showing me more of wat life is and to move on.

GOODBYE 2007!
HELLO 2008!!!
& HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIDAYAT!
HUG ME BROTHER!
:D

Maroon 5 - Wont go home without you

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say
Oh
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

The taste of her breath, I'll never get over
The noises that she made kept me awake
Oh
The weight of things that remain unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

Im pretty much a slacker at home n wats worst? - Parents have been a real jackass with me. Pfft! So yeah, the only solution is to get away from home. Hell yeah! Im not doing this to oppose but im doing this bcoz i cant take it. Mom dad, you guys are too much. This is my life. I noe what im dealing with. Even a wrong small step i took might be a crucial consequences in my future. I knew all this okay...i learnt it. So dont worry too much about me. I know wat i capable of. & I believe, if you dare to do it, dare to face the consequences but not run away from it. & Lately, i've been facing shitass problems. I THINK ITS KARMA. & KARMA'S IS A BITCH! Fuck kan.

So yeah, i met eddy yesterday. He picked me up at 10. We went to mac and talk nonsense. Ever since i broke up with izz, eddy have been there for me la. Now i realised la sey. AHAHA. Eddy is a real man you shouldnt miss hanging out with. Hes not a jerk. Dont worry. If you told him to back off, he will (: To a certain extent, hes a gentlemen. But when it comes to bad boy, he will be one. He is just someone with a little bit of heaven and a little bit of hell. Yadda Yadda Yadda & HES CUTE! I dont even know why im telling abt him. AHAHA .Eh korang2 yg nk ada matair talian eddy masih terbuka yer, jgn segan2. Minta ajek. Dia suker. Lmao :D

Wooooo~! COUNTDOWN! COUNTDOWN! COUNTDOWN! I cant wait for 2008 (:
- New year, new life, new resolution, new achievements, new faces & new probs to be solve -

And I swear I’ll know your face in a crowd.
And I’ll hear your voice so loud,
even when you’re whispering.