237 - Camwhore!

Yesterday was FUN. Heart to heart talks with bf and pictures all the way till he sent me home.

Thanks baby for everything. And oh Bf such a sweet boy to buy a brooch and scarf for her mum with my help. (Mama's boy la katekn!) Tehee!

Im going off to dinner with bf and I dont know where to next.Have to doll up now. He's coming in 15 minutes time! Goodbye people! Have a good day! :33

236 - Do you know how hard it is to become what u want?

Sometimes I wish I get the same attention like how much I gave it to you.

Sometimes I wish I get the same love like how much I love you.

Sometimes I wish I get the same respect like how much I respect you.

 And the list can go on and on w/o stopping.

235 - The Ugly Truth

She’s the girl that believes that what comes around goes around. The one that hopes for a better day. The one that won’t give up on you. She’s the girl that’s unlike the rest. The one that spent her days smiling, and her nights crying. She’s the girl that would love to be loved. The one that looks so damn strong, but feels so weak. She’s the girl that picks herself up every time she falls.

234 - American Idol!

If I'm a US citizen, I would certain vote for Andrew Garcia! Don't miss the chance ok people!
He's good! Too good! Though I think that during Hollywood week he set the bar too high that now its all going down, my mind is NOT changing! 
Talent like his, who knows and have the courage to take up music up to his creativeness is a very very tough thing. Yeah! 10 thumbs up for him!
Andrew Garcia is the NEXT AMERICAN IDOL!

233 - On to the next one!

What I'm going to say here may sound stupid, but I think me & Bf are bored with Singapore. It feels as if we went to all the parts of singapore, every shopping malls, every shops, every MRT stations till we're much clueless on where to go next. My oh my! We both have itchy legs and bottoms, we just can't stay at 1 place for toooo long. God bless us! Now now, where to go baby? Don't leave this tough question on me! :(

232 - Uncertain

I hate myself for being such a bad person. I hate myself taking and asking money from my parents. I hate myself for wanting so much unnecessary stuffs. I hate myself for reminding "I can't afford" to buy stuffs that I've lust. I hate myself for being so useless. Sometimes I feel the urge of pushing myself further. Take extra jobs. I'm a full time student, but I feel the need for me to take up extra 2 more jobs to pamper and fulfilled my needs/task. But I know my body can't take up the pressure. I hate seeing my studies flunk and I had tons of advise to focus on education before wanting to work. Which side? Should I push or should I pull?

231- 13monthsary ♥

This video here, I'd like to give a shout-out to my boyfriend, Muhammad Hilmi Bin Sunanwi.
Read the words/lyrics bby. It meant a lot to me.

When I look at you
I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong and I know
I'm not alone

Yes. I love it that you love me for who I am and nobody can replace the love you gave me this 13 monthsary baby. I know people who had longer relationship would see this as rather minor, but yes, I love him be it in or out. And my boyfriend here has a big heart to love someone like me. Its hard. It is hard to love someone who have so low self-esteem, low confident level, fickle minded and more. His courage and commitment has open my eyes on how serious he is into this relationship despite though we sometimes treat each other like siblings, like friends, like husband-wife but I don't care baby, we have a whole rounded love here! And I hope we still hold each other "like the stars hold the moon" and like the sea hold the sea water! Yes baby, I want us to last till forever! ♥

I love Muhammad Hilmi Bin Sunanwi ♥

230 - A come back!

I'm always too lazy and I'm always out in town or with boyfriend 24/7 which explain why i refuse to update. Who in the world would bother reading this. You know I'm right! ;)

Anyway, on a lighter note. This post means a come back to me. I'm going to start updating and start re-collecting my memories. So yeah, I just realized this is my 230 post after let just say 3 years? Too little? I don't know.

Since it is pretty much my holidays for 2 month, I thought I could use it to take part-time jobs to earn $ but I guess I have to back down the idea as by this 14th march I have to look after my nenek. This wasn't my plan. When I heard the idea, I wasn't too happy at all. (No I'm not kidding) I'm not really close to her and I hate awkward moments. I had this instinct that looking after my nenek wasn't a perfect gateway for my 2 month holidays. My mind was repeating the word boring boring boring! Plus, whenever its holidays, I always, always will be out of money. Which made me almost desperate for money and too narrow-minded until I've become the selfish grandchild. (I know).


But not too worry, I changed my mindset and YES, Im going to look after my nenek! It was a bless to look after the elderly and reimburse my wrong doings that I've done to her. Plus, I want to make my mum proud. I want her to know that I can take up challenges like this. I would also want her to be happy while she was on her way to Umrah and leave the matter about nenek rest settled with me (: And I know deep deep inside me I love my nenek a lot. I just too shy to show my feelings to her.


I love you nenek Sariah Binte Yasin.

The worth ride

First, I apologise to my blog readers for not updating. I was just plain lazy and I was busy in love to update. Also lots of shocking news that literally made me sit down & think how unfair life can be.

School started last week and I was put into class W45J. Bob Marley says that everything is going to be alright. So yeah, I expect the best from my new classmates. But despite that the bond I’ve had with my previous class, W14L, will always be cherish to bits & pieces. I know it’s been almost 1 week with my new classmates but it’s just not the same feeling I had with ‘THE SAKOPEK’.

Boyfriend started work & our times together are not as much as before. I wish I can stop & pause time. I would like to see back our love life & how much we have change for the better. Truth is I’m very much amazed with us. I never thought that the egos in both me & my bf would actually bring us this far. It must be the strong feeling in us, the commitment & also the patience. I really am thankful with I have now.

& I really miss my babes. It has been such a long time don’t you think?

Henderson Waves pictures with love:

love to make life worthwhile

First thing first, Happy anniversary to my sweeet boyfriend. Who treat me all the way with my enormous appetite in fooods. I ate beef noodle soup, french fries, sushi, erm followed by home food; mee soto and sambal telur. OMG.

Anyway, i was browsing in the internet for photography pictures. I am interested for photoshoot and came across amazing photoshooot from unknown photographer.

LOVELY AND ABSOLUTE PERFECT PHOTOSHOOOT! Thumbs up for the creativity!