I just don't have the time to update. Kinda busy but not really busy. Get the drift? Lets just say that i kinda wanted to make my days busy. Okay. (:
Well... i been thinking about this 'coincidence of love' since long long time ago. Im sorry but i have to quote it since i cant really give it name. Ya, you know, its a public blog. Sometimes, i have to admit that i did fall for you & at the same time its kinda confusing coz you were like a stranger. Then everything went chaos when all my exs started to get in touch with me back. & yes, i just didn't have the guts to say those 3 words to you. Neither i wanted to say bad things to my ex which might hurts their feelings. I so feared bad timing. Sometimes, i just wonder, why am i so good to them that i sacrifices my heart even though I'm aware that the consequences might be severe. So, lets just be straight to point okay... I wanted to not get in touch or forget you at least... Oh, i know i had said this a couple, perhaps million times.. but im trying. Its great love... You have made a huge impact in my life. A very very huge impact.. You know, this person i fall in love with was far far way better than me & I'm giving up. I'm running away from the reality; i hope its not a fact that he fall for me too. I hope its not. But you will still be in my memories & my blessings lists. & thanks for the memories, its a tresure.

If you guys were wondering, why am i soo emo on this post was because i heard news on my friend's love life continued by discussion n opinions & one of them said that sometimes when time no longer gives us the chance, we just have to move on & get a life. Its no use to look behind, it will just hurts more. Wat my friend had said, i have to agree with it... i think its true.
& ya, i apologise if you find this post boring. Have some consideration though. (:
I will update soon.

OH-MY, Someone was admitted to hops. NO!!! Better get well soon. I don't want to lose someone i loved & who appreciates me.

Okay. If you are wondering about sakinah's tagging, yes, i did not came to sch today. Its not that i had a fever or flu... or anything from that sense. Its not. Tuesday was the day that the thing hit me. It was when i wanted to get up from my sitting position & the way i got up, maybe it was wrong and it hit me hard around my thigh part. But, i can still walk properly & in fact, run too. The next day(wed), i had P.E. This was when the matter got worst coz we played rugby. Rugby consist of lots of running, defending and skills. So ya, i kinda stretch my pain to the limitation even though i know it was painful...& i still play until the end of the game. Ridzwan told me to get the ball& charge forward, but i told him i cant run anymore. I do the defending instead coz i thought it was much easier. But wth, I was push hard by shawn... tercampak la sey. Then yes, more n more pushing coz i was mainly the target. Fooo. (:
So after P.E, i walk more slower to reduce the pain. I cant laugh hard coz it hurts & etc. So now, even though i was resting at home, i cant stand or sit for a long period of time. & even better, i still cant walk at my normal speed. But, nvm. I will try. See you guys tmr (:

Oh gosh, i cant get to you.
Don't fall apart from me.
Okay.
(:

Okay cool. Pics for today. But still, i couldn't get some of the racial harmony photos. But nvm, i will upload it once i have it. (:

FRIDAY : Racial harmony day!
PPLS are sooo pretty awesome!

Theres tons of grp pictures taken but wth,
I'm still waiting for that person to sent it to me.
(:

SUNDAY :
step 1: went out with family!
wooooo~!

Step 2: spring cleaning! UH, look at my silly face.
Just being CRAZY= ME. (:
& oh, check out this next part.
The best windy, cooling ,peaceful place you had ever been on.
Really la!


Tuesday(24.07.07) :
Step 1: board the bus to pulau semakau & camwhore.
Look at my silly face again.
wooo~! ( crazy= me)
Sakinah would know how noisy i am in the bus.
bingit kan aku.
tk uh, ko lagi. (:
Frankly speaking, they were praying. (berdoa dalam iman)
(; wink**

The map of semakau island!
The big part(outline in green) was the reclamation land
& the place where we went to, was a fake land. & still, it looked so original.
Cool kan? & the climax was, they used ashes of our dirty thrown rubbish.
& it doesn't stinks! (:

I wish there is F1 cars here. Weird, the pics turned out darker from the facts.

It looks spooky here coz of the dark clouds.
But its way different from wat it really looks like.
Uhm, get the drift?

Ooooo.... look there.
Obviously, we were a bit kanchong of the wildlife animals( not dangerous of coz),
rare birds were found there...
& again, we camwhore!

Me& Alvin!( very very windy, indeed)

Me & sakinah. Cute la dia!

I find this pic funny. Muke cam steam eh?
& i like harveen posed. Very the dramatic gituk kan?
(:

OH, i LOVE THIS CLASS.
KANCHONG. CRAZY. ALL FOR 1.
PRETTY PRETTY PPL.
(:

thats all folks.
THESE PICS ARE UNEDITED.
thank you.
(:

Okay. I'm back & theres too many things to talk about. But let just summarise it all okay.

Friday - Racial harmony day! Great event. Why? All of my classmates were all wearing traditional costumes . COOL kan? I bet, our class gonna win the photo competition. Lets have a cheers. x)
Then.. supposedly school ends at 3 plus, coz theres a racial harmony concert or watsoever at 2pm but many of my classmates went out of sch instead. See, my class so cooperative...heheheh.
Then, went home & changed. Meet monkey....bla bla bla & yes, i shan't elaborate. thank you.
P.S - I'm sorry if i did not take any calls that day. I'm just want to be alone once i meet monkey.

Saturday - Err... i don't really remember much. But at night, i followed my mum to dont noe where & i remembered that i end up talking with the committees & zaki. Oh, thanx zaki for your spare time to entertain me. Stupid monkey was asleep sia. penat sgt kaper?

Sunday - Went out with family. Oh, bring me family on weekends.. super duper fun la. Then, as usual every two weeks, we will have spring cleaning. Duh, my parents plus plus plus their children were to busy to clean up the house on weekdays. kuang3. x)
Then went out again.... bla bla bla bla.

I will post some pictures on racial harmony day once i have the time. okay
x)

OH, its beautiful. I tell you, its beautiful.
Its picture perfect.
Don't let it go.
I tell you the truth.
I tell you my feelings.
Pls, don't let it go.
I find a way to tell you the truth.
I find a way to be with you.

I still loves ur mysteriousness.
& that profound super deep meanings.
x)

Today. In the morning, i was just not me. Out of the blue, i had super many flashback in my minds & crisis that had happened to me. It was like someone had put a spell on me. & Aft several hours, my body became soo weak. I couldn't even feel my legs. & yes, i felt that my body was sooo cold in the inside. The feeling was like im at the edge of my life. & those voices i heard , either my six sense or voices in my head or someone. I couldnt get it right. But for sure, I couldn't concentrate. & yes, i think flunk my maths test. Such a bad situation. I dont noe, wat had happened...i even don't realised that theres ppl & there are talking to me. It was just not me. But for real, i felt like it was the end of my life. Where flashbacks would suddenly appear...the sad moments plus the happy moments plus those person whom i loved... The flashbacks & crisis made a super duper impact on me. And that was when, i couldnt think straight at all.

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
It's like I can't think
In my thoughts, in my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like a ghost that's haunting me
Its like im not me.
Leave me alone.

Tmr, will be celebrating racial harmony day. I'm wearing cheongsam. Provided that im okay to go to school & monkey is still okay. Till here then, i will update soon. x)

School was again the usual stuffs. In fact, i get hit by hmm...sakinah(million times, she even throw my bottles sia.), syaf( got hit by 1 painful massage), amalina( just get push to and fro) just bcoz of my idea on not coming to sch on Fri, to celebrate racial harmony. Sally opposed the idea too coz we are COMMITTEES. Wahlao.

P.s : i need superman to take me away on Friday. 1 good excuse right? * i was kidnapped by superman. LOL. COOL! x)

Chem test was okay la. Okay as in "nvr learn" terms can? x) Wei xian keep saying mdm. Wahlao. Shut up la Mr... & perhaps, i prefer miss more la. And and, its sounds better in me. x)
Khairul was always with his kicking tricks. Bluek! You cant make me fall la. Im just tooo AWeSOMe. x) & cut the mrs ila can?
Joseph.. just the good thingy sign. Oh, wats wrong with the x-laws nowdays?
But its fun la. Without them schools will be boring... really.

Olvl listening compre was okay la. Before the exams starts at 5p.m sharp, the songs that was broadcasted was soooo emo& sentimental which almost made me dozed off... Sooo sleepy.
& yes, i made it thru. I get my concentration back. & hope that my ans were correct even though it was tricky.. x)

You must know that what i have said concerns you & not someone else.

Wahlao. Imeem sux to the max la! No full version songs. & All of my fav songs only 30 seconds preview. Unfair! But nvm, i not stupid. So ya, i search for other sites which allows me to hear full version songs. So walaaa... Now it sounds more cooler like water cooler. hahahax. X)

Nothing much lately. Spent most of my time at home doing piled up hmwks. More test coming up this week. Monday was olvl mt listening compre & chem test. Maths test. Amaths test. Ohmy! (Speechless). I bought new sch shoes. Woooo!

I love love arcade. I love 30 seconds to mars. I love paramore. I love goo goo dolls. I love the red jumpsuit apparatus. I love the Arctic monkeys. I love my monkey. I love bowling for soup. I love the gym class heroes. I love music. Its universal.. x)

Wish me a very very GOOD LUCK for tmr Olvl listening compre. I hoped the tricky-ness is not that difficult.

Pictures for today can?

1. This is me, obviously. & These words is true, okay . =)

2. This is my school. Greenish sch. =)

3. Galfriends! Aku sayang bangat sama mereka.

4. Love this pic!(muka mau maintain eh. hahax)
This is how we share laughters every single sch days.
=)

6. They bringing sexy back...yeah....nanana.( i don't noe the next)
=p

7. In class. Before Amaths.

8. Oh. This is pH paper(peng hong). Right! the boy sitting next to me during Amaths.
Enjoy disturbing him & him disturbing me.
=)

9. OH ! This is bear bear. Nice pose =p

Okay...I'm not in pics no. 3-9 coz I'm the photographer. I'm tired of cam whoring. So, let my galfriends do the cam whoring thingy, can? I'm only cam whore for the first pic. tsk tsk.

For maths & geography, i was busy recording video for the class project. Cool. Teachers were caught in action.. but before that i want to apologised for doing this action. Yes, i know it was wrong.. but it was for a project organised by the sch...kinda like that la. So, I'm sorry.
Okay. Till here then. Goodbye. :))

A chance is worth in desperate situation.
So, shld i give someone this chance?

THANK YOU MR. DUM DUM !!!!

Mr. dum dum went sooo quiet when i said "Do you feel like a man when you push me around? Do you feel better when you see me cry? Do you feel better? Hmm, i picked this phrase from one of my all-time fav song... It is soo meaningful to boys out there who liked to tease/toyed girls feelings or hurts girl feelings. Boys boys boys.. Get the full story..its not wat you think it is. & yes, i said to him that i might get sicked of having the same probs... "I finally had enough". My face was super tensed. I tried my best to be brave. It was false bravado.. To my suprise, mr dum dum said sorry which is actually his MOST RARE words i ever heard him saying. bla bla bla. Next was super personal... i shan't elaborate. =p

Sch was the usual thingy la. But the best part was sakinah fought with amin(amin used vulgar words la sey whereas sakinah tooooo physical. heheheheh. wink**) & ridzwan was super scared when we said " Aiyo, aper ko dah uat kt sakinah uh?(wat have you done to sakinah). But eventually, everything went okay... Quite funny+dramatic eh the ending? hahahas.

P.S : i wanna grow 4 cm taller or more. Even better!
163+4= 167cm. woooo!!!!

Thanx sakinah for the shades. I dont need it anyway. Coz im not going. x)

DUH. I'm bored & definitely pissed off. Thanx to Mr ashraf ... pls la. I don't wanna argue. You just misjudged me.. To be honest, you become soo emotional lately. I cant fight with you anymore. I cant resist the pain to fight with someone who really really really care about me & someone who i really really really appreciates. You need to hear me explain...okay?

Well, this is another story of mine/us on someone we firstly trusted as a loyal friend or watever quality a friend has , which turns out to be someone different. Its more than meets the eye..its not wat we expected but its worst. Do you know how it feels to be hatred by someone who is actually a friend of yours? Well, it hurts like how a friend of mine who actually did it to me and perhaps my other friends. & said something which is not really true to other ppl. Such like backstabber, that kinda shit. But i don't care. I don't wanna fight. I just wanna noe the truth what makes you hates us. I know sometimes the truth might hurts but the truth can tell us a thousand meanings. & pls don't avoid us coz it hurts ALOT. & when i said alot...it means definitely ALOT. Its like how your mom avoid you...& dont fucking freaking care about you.
Lastly, don't think about yourself. Ya..i know its all about you. You think you the only one who is hurt? uh huh....you wrong. Perhaps, we should hurts more. " I hate....... " is a very strong word.... The past memories of us, think it back. Is it we who force you or is it we who help you? You wanted it...n we helped you. & what we doing is not something wrong where we could be locked up in jail right? Its not a bad thing. Wats the big deal? & when we wanna discussed, you don't want and said to us "go figure it out yourself". What kind of attitude is that?
Think about it again. & pls, im not complaining . (Just in case you get toooo emotional.)