242 - Don't want to be a broken hearted girl

Whenever war happens between us, I tend to feel guilty. Every time. Without fail I will be the one always ask for forgiveness. I detest this feeling. I dislike being the water in this relationship. I feel unfairness. I feel the need to be treated like how you want to be treated. I feels as if he's taking advantage over me. I know its not his fault neither mine because it was all a misunderstanding. (Yes, it's that minor) There are times when I hate you because I cant erase the times that you hurt me, and put tears on my face. And even now while I hate you, it pains me to say I still love you so deep. I can't let you go now because this feeling deep inside is too strong to push you away from my life. Sometimes I feel like giving up and let love finds me. But I know when there's love there's pain and this life of love won't end. There are times when I hate you but I don't dare complain because Ive been afraid that you would've walk away. But I know tomorrow or later, I dont hate you and Im happy to say I'll be loving you more. I hope you don't misunderstand this too. This took a lot of courage. I'm afraid, always afraid of love because erasing your love from my life is not as easy as walking out the door.

When I first saw you, I was afraid to talk to you. When I first talked to you, I was afraid to like you. When I first liked you, I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you I'm afraid to lose you

241 - Respect

Is it that simple? Have you ever wondered what it takes to earn respect? Have you ever wondered what one should do to be respected? Have you came across friends that listen, obey and never fail to go against their elders(Be it your parents, siblings, husband, boyfriend)? I have to say based on my experience, few of these people exists. Are you one of them? Tell me what's your secret recipe, can? I'm not talking about "I'm the eldest so you must respect me". This is far too common and believe it or not, this won't work in today's century! Earning respect to me it's like people look up to you like you're the role model. People wanted to be like you! People inspires you! People follow you! Does earning respect for yourself ever cross your mind? 

Who inspires you the most?

My mom. I think every daughter would inspires their mom. Especially those mum that I would call super mom. She's a great cook, great at house-chores, great at understanding her children. She a all rounder. Too many things that make me inspires her the most.

Ask me anything

240 - Irreplaceable

I am very grateful to still have my girlfriends around though sometimes I'm not always updating/online/messaging or whatsoever. They always brighten my day and makes me smile and laugh till like I can literally pee on my pants. I will appreciate them to bits & pieces and try my upmost best to be the best girlfriend for them. And oh I will try my best to always be there whenever they're not okay.
(Just in case you guys are aren't malay, the convo from Facebook shows how silly & cute Smurfette misunderstand what me & Syaf trying to say. And yet Smurfette is very confident on the topic despite it was just a misunderstanding). ♥

Boyfriend is such a cute ass! He called me early midnight just to tell me that he's hot and he is going to switch on the air-con. ♥ Cute right! Anyway baby, don't worry. Lets pray and hope nothing bad is going to happen and lets together change for the better. We want to be good people right baby? :3

239 - Fear

People always say "overcome your fear". I fear of losing the people I truly love. People whom I treat so special. How am I supposed to overcome it? I scared that I'll be alone. When I'm alone I'll get sensitive. When I'm sensitive I'll tend to dislike people who don't agree with me. When I dislike people, I push them away from my life. How can I overcome my fear?

I fear of losing control. I'm afraid of un-control situation. I'm afraid of what my future will be; I'm afraid it's not how I want it to be. I'm afraid of people who don't understand as one people; like I thought a girl would understand a girl feelings, but please think twice. Really. How can I overcome my fear?

Most of these bypass itself by nature. While others seek help from experts. But most of it comes from faith.If you strongly believe it something, you'll get gains or lost. Gains because if you believe you can overcome your fear, then it will be overcome. Lost because if you believe you can't then it'll be forever your fear.

Faith is by far a strong word. Don't underestimate how much it made you think and act nowadays. Don't ya'll think?

238 - Logan Lerman

Hi people! It's 3 am here in singapore. I have to wake up early as 7 am tomorrow yet now I can't sleep. Hence I should do a movie review here. Shall i? :3


Anyway, previous month(February) I catch Percy Jackson with my family on Cathay. I thought that the movie was good but it was rather predictable. I can predict that Percy Jackson is the son of poseidon(the part that Percy stays in the pool so long & he finds that its the best place for him to think), who steals the lightning bolt(Who else if the movie only introduce little character) and he's going to meet Hades(God of the Underworld) and etc. The movie is somehow like re-acting based on a book story-line. However, this movie is interesting to watch! And Logan Lerman is super cute! He got this amazing eyes don't ya'll think? Haha. Anyway, I would rate this movie 3.5/5. 2 thumbs up baby! 

If you could have invented one thing, what would it have been?

An instrument that keep World peace. Thank you.

Ask me anything

What is your dream honeymoon getaway?

Italy :3 I dream of it almost once in a week. With different surroundings, but i know its ITALY.

Ask me anything

237 - Camwhore!

Yesterday was FUN. Heart to heart talks with bf and pictures all the way till he sent me home.

Thanks baby for everything. And oh Bf such a sweet boy to buy a brooch and scarf for her mum with my help. (Mama's boy la katekn!) Tehee!

Im going off to dinner with bf and I dont know where to next.Have to doll up now. He's coming in 15 minutes time! Goodbye people! Have a good day! :33

236 - Do you know how hard it is to become what u want?

Sometimes I wish I get the same attention like how much I gave it to you.

Sometimes I wish I get the same love like how much I love you.

Sometimes I wish I get the same respect like how much I respect you.

 And the list can go on and on w/o stopping.